Monday, December 15, 2014

The Cleanse - Week Two (Hitting My Stride)

I can not believe I have completed two weeks of this 30 day love cleanse. It is still not easy. I'm starting to receive round two of texts and messages from people who I know I have unbalanced relationships with but it is getting easier to ignore certain things and I've hit my stride with not dating, texting nor flirting. The thing that is not getting easier is my spiritual walk.

I have moments of clarity but they are short lived. My issue is the harder situations with inconsiderate people who demand you are considerate of them. Mainly the issue is work. My declaration is Friday was the last day I allow this foolishness. No longer will I allow work foolishness to get a bad reaction from me.

No more of this foolishness!

What is happening is a shift around me. My parents have talked about what happened between them many years ago and that brings me a sense of happiness for them. Hoping they can start to heal and move on as better people. That was big...for numerous reasons. My friends parents (both are dear to me) have started to become much more cordial to each other. They even danced together at a recent party. Once again, I am hoping that healing is on the horizon for each of them.

As for me, there is no ground shifting right now but I am only on halfway through this cleanse.

Until Next Time,

Peace & Blessings...

Monday, December 8, 2014

The Cleanse - Week One (It's Not Easy)

Week One:

Week one was difficult and much harder than I thought it would be. This 30 Day Love Cleanse is not easy. I've been asked out on more dates this week than I can remember. If I was available I can guarantee that I wouldn't be able to buy a date! Crazy universe.

I still think of my Genesis, often. It has become less emotional but I am still unable to control the thoughts or memories. I'm hoping week two will be better. Because of the no interaction with exes and no flirting I have not been social dancing outside of my weekly class. The holidays must be the season of declaring romantic interest for men. Very ironic.

I have been able to work on a few things this past week. There is some clarity that it's slowly coming from the fog. It's not something that comes overnight but slowly, my clarity is unfolding. 

This is only day eight.

Until Next Time,

Peace & Blessings...

Thursday, December 4, 2014

The Cleanse - Day 1-3 (It's Raining Men) is raining men!

If you read my last post I am in the middle of a spiritual detox and ran across a 30 Day Love Cleanse on a site that I frequent and decided, why not? Now is also a good time to cleanse my relationship juju (is that a word?) while working on the rest of me.

It has been three days and I literally think I have heard from almost every ex and want to be next from the past four years. Including some I never knew were interested. Even one from the online dating world that I thought had fallen off. But the real entertaining one happened while treating myself to a brand new shiny flat screen for my living room a very attractive man (hey, I'm cleansing not dead) appeared out of what seemed to be thin air to ask if he could load it into my trunk for me. 

I'm a lady who loves men to be men so I obliged. After being asked a few questions he offered me his card "in case I wanted to call him later." Um, okay I admit to taking the card. I also admit to texting a brief thank you for helping with the TV. I also admit to wanting him to have my number but now I'm sure he thinks I'm ignoring him because I found my bearing and put myself back on track for my cleanse which includes:

  1. No sex
  2. No dating
  3. No flirting
  4. No contact with former lovers (or anyone you have an unbalanced relationship with)
  5. Increasing physical activity
  6. Living healthy (no fast food) 
  7. Journal my experience
Yeah, I failed at number 3 yesterday in the parking lot of the department store. This is not going to be as easy as I thought. I told my sister that God is sending men out of the sky right now. Her response was, "That's not God!"

My dearest Sis just might be right.

Until Next Time,

Peace & Blessings...